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Thoughts on a Friday -- Memory Lane

So I was talking to my sister on the phone this morning, when we got into the topic of "Me Time."

It seems that it is a girl thing, or so we thought. Both of us shared our often futile dreams of having an entire day for ourselves, at home, with no rush, work, appointments, or anything. In fact, the kind of day where you unplug the telephone, forget that there is a world outside, and just chill.

All by yourself. No one around.

Just for 24 hours.

Bliss.

Ahhh, we can always dream . . .

And here I am, dreaming of 24 hours of blessed solitude, when there was a time once in which I felt horribly lonely because I had no social life. This was around the time when I divorced husband No. 2, and I had no other life other than work, kids, and worrying how I was going to pay the rent. It was rather sad. And as much as I long for a moment of peace these days, I do not look forward to the loneliness of those dark days.

Solitude is one thing, loneliness is another.

On the other hand, that time also taught me to have a good time by myself. I remember one Friday evening where my kids were not at home, my friends were not available, and I really wanted to go out.

So I went to the movies.

By myself.

Yup, for the first time in my life I went to a movie house on my own. And I must say, it felt good. I remember it as if it were yesterday. The movie was "Soldier" and it had Kurt Russell in it.

It also was one of the worst movies ever. Poor Kurt looked like he had died last year and no one told him. But I didn't care, because I felt so grown up and so free. So what if I had no company? I had myself, and me and myself had a grand time even if the movie stunk worse than a dead skunk in the middle of the road.

Ironically enough, when the movie finally made it to TV, Carlos thought that it was the best movie ever, purchased the DVD, and played it over and over until me and the Scandal the cat were ready to do a Mexican sombrero dance over the wretched thing.

Ahhhh, good times.

The other movie that I went to see on my own was "The Fifht Element." No one I knew wanted to see it, so I went alone. (Currently, I doubt that I would have much trouble convincing anyone of watching a Bruce Willis Sci-Fi, but those were other times.)

Oh, how I loved that movie! To this day, I have a soft spot in my heart for it. And after all, what's not to like about a movie featuring Bruce Willis, Mila Jovovich, Gary Oldman and Chris Tucker in one of his funniest roles ever?

That's one movie that I am willing to watch over and over until Scandal the Cat does a Mexican sombrero dance on me. It'll be worth it.

So yes, I am grateful to have so many friends, as well as a social life that can only be described as a tornado.

Even if it makes me long for 24 hours of solitude.

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caemfind
Oct. 11th, 2008 02:06 pm (UTC)
So true!
Hi Bel. You're so right. The thing that jumps out at me is that if you can't be happy with yourself all alone, no one is going to be able to change that. People are nice and we love them and they can vex us or help us but they can't make us comfortable with ourselves.
belfebe
Oct. 12th, 2008 02:57 am (UTC)
Re: So true!
Amen
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